Fun in the sun...

So I once saw an interview with a famous male personality that said, "She has to feel as comfortable in the swimwear as in an evening gown". Now while I thought this was rather funny, at the time, I started thinking about when was the last time I honestly felt comfortable in my own skin that I FELT that I looked as good in a swim suit as a evening gown.

No woman likes the inevitable "swim suit shopping" season, as it is an instant reminder of the "thighs" that we have been hiding under those pants we where everyday. UGH Cottage Cheese thighs!! Then we will further the self loathing process by then giggling at them in the mirror while grimacing at the same time in the dressing room. Make no nevermind, that our gal pal is outside the room laughing hysterically at our commentary. Then we open the door.....
*Gasp*
Our friends Instant first response is the tell all of if we should buy the dang thing or not. We look for the roll of the eyes or the frown on the lips or the cocking of the head to one side,,, all these things tell us they are examining every inch of the body and determining if this will get me any action on the beach. Then it is the "sales" job of the century. Women are great at "selling" anything. If you don't believe me men, then check out the diamond ring on your lady's finger...If that wasn't a sales job, then well...I don't know what is.

Becka and I went shopping for suits one time. Her issue is that she is short and feels like a "pygmy" and me well, Long legs and large jugs (which is a problem all of it's own) being 5'10" isn't always a breeze to find JUST the right suit. I am sure you all are saying to yourselves, that this is an easy problem to fix...well, not so easy...TRUST me. Either the top is over filled and falling out or if the top fits then the azz looks like I took a dump and lets recap a bikini??? HELL NO!! So, finding just the right suit that compliments my freakish body is a challenge. Anyway, back to the story. So I break the cardinal rule and try on this horizontal strip number and....
*GASP***
THAT IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE ON YOU!!! Then of course...I am still wondering if she paid this guy to comment, this guy waiting on his wife, whistles, and agrees w/ Becka that this is a "MUST buy". HMMMM I am trying to impress the men.... so this one is going home w/ me...comfy, fits the twins nice and makes my thighs look great.

Then she goes in to the dressing room and we do it all over again. Every year I make some crazy resolution to live healthy and be consistent w/ my exercise resume. Every year I get lazier and lazier about getting up early or working out after work...When I moved to Arizona I thought, "ok I will want to work out everyday, because the weather is always so great. HA Lets recap today, at 530am it was already 89 degrees. By Noon it will be about 103 and by 5pm tonight it si supposed to be 109-110. HA workout everyday. Now I am sure some of you are thinking, "use your A/C. Sure. To keep my 800 SQ FT apt at 80 it will cost me about $100 per month. I try to keep it at 85 so that I can keep my bill at $85-95...I used to have a gym membership and then, well, life once again stepped in and I opted to workout at home w/ my elliptical. LOL ; o)

Today I am wondering why we women beat ourselves up each year about our bodies. Why don't we just LOVE how we look. I remember looking at photos of myself in high school and college and thinking WOW! Who is that HOT babe, w/ the long hair??? LOL ;o) Then I think Why when I was there was I not thinking the same thing? I would say how fat I was and how ugly I was at the time. Why didn't I think that I looked good then as when I look at the pics now? Not in a vain self conceded way, just a healthy self love?? Isn't this an attributes that men find even more attractive than a wafer or "small boned gal"? Self confidence and feeling comfortable with all you are??

I can honestly say that my self image was driven by my families unhealthy view of what is skinny and fat instead of thinking "what is healthy". It is hard to learn portion control when your mom sits down and eats a package of Oreo's for dinner and then makes you eat peas and chicken. WTF?? No wonder I have had so many issues with food. I learned it from my Mother. Now that I am older and "wiser" (Laugh to self right now) I think that I have acknowledged the unhealthy emotional food frenzy of my family...I wonder have I mastered the Non yo-yo dieting that I have been doing since I was 12? Then I realize it times to go get into the pool and hang out in the sun... All this just to put on a swim suit this morning....