My life is a Greek Tragedy.

Well, I survived my birthday. ~Waves hands and rolls eyes~

So on my "special day" I actually started on Saturday night at midnight. WHOOO HOOO!!!! I worked the weekend with the glow business, then had some cocktails. Last night Sunday, I was up at the bar "the Tilten Kilt". Since it is a good 30 min drive, I invited New Fish to be my DD. So all good plans? Sure! Here is how it REALLY went.

Sunday morning, the phone rings. Grandma singing "Happy Birthday" then promptly into a whole dialogue about my Mother. See, Mom called on Saturday, the day before, to "break" the "news" to me. Then after 40 min of not talking about anything other than the weather, Mom tells me that she is in "active rejection". This means 1-2 years and she is not eligible to be put on the donor list again. Nothing about "Happy Birthday" nothing. *sigh* Understandable, really. Grim Reaper and all. So back to Grandma's call. See, she is a good old fashioned Southern Baptist and I thought the Catholics had the corner on the guilt trip.

So after 20 min of crying and listening to my poor Grandma's rhetoric, I then with in the hour had my Mom on the phone. More crying. It has been 7 years that her life was extended. It's not like, we didn't know this day would come. I mean we all hope. Silly selfish me to want just ONE day to celebrate LIFE!!! JUST ONE DAY! Clearly too much to ask for.

SOOOOO to try and forget about all the bad things in my families life, I went to get a message from the school. *sigh* That was THE best gift I EVER gave myself.

I text New Fish, that I wanted to leave by 845. So while sending it I half expected that he would not be able to go. He never really committed, I accepted the "I will see if I can make arrangements." So, when he text me that he had a sick 4 year old to take care of, I wasn't shocked. No DD so I was on my own. I still managed to have an ok time. Good friends, shooting the breeze. ~shrugs shoulders~

When do I get to have a real Birthday? When? Every year I look at all that I have and thank for my blessings. Then I look to all the disappointments and *sigh* What more? I mean, what more should I have to deal with on MY one day?

LOL

You know, people, I am firm that having any kind of a celebration is stupid. NO way did I feel special or that it was a day that I should be celebrated. How sad is it that the HIGHLIGHT was all your love, e-mails and support.

~shakes head~

That is so cyber-sad. Thanks to all you for your Birthday wishes. You all RAWK!

~blows kisses~