Broken....

*******Update********
This post in now way reflects how I feel today...I wrote this song over 3 years ago after a REALLY bad break up... I was with a man I thought I was going to marry and have children with...My heart hurt so much I never thought I would be where I am today. I have blogging and your love and support to thank for that.


I was inspired by Effortlessly Average to share a small part of my heart. I must say, reading this as a poem is much like ripping the band-aid off fast, but here it goes. I wrote this as a song, ...lt occured to me that I haven't put up a post lately about being single and how despritely lonely I feel sometimes. I normally like to deflect Any REAL emotion with humor. That is my Modis operandi, if you will. If I make fun and address the elephant in the room, so to speak, I don't get blind sided...*ahem*

So here you go, raw and unrehearsed:

Broken

When you left me
I thought I died.
I felt numb and Then,
I felt the pain. It was
the pain of a thousand promises,
you have broken. The pieces are
like a puzzle that I can't find.

Chorus:
How long will I cry
why did he lie,
when will this pain go away, and
why can't I drink it all away?

When I woke up there you were,
a memory, fresh in my mind. How
can it hurt this bad? Why can't I smile?
I look for a drink, to numb the pain and wonder
why can't I make you go away?

Chorus:

Why do you look so happy
What didn't I do?
Why wasn't I enough, oh
Lord make me stronger, but for now
I'm gonna just drink it all away

Chorus:

Bridge ending:

Yes, I think Im going to just drink it all away
Someday I will have drank it all away.



Ok so, I guess this makes me sound as though I am advocating booze to solve the pain and dispair...*sigh*
~shrug shoulders~
I feel really naked right now....