I had to break it off...

I started "dating" a guy JT a few weeks ago, that he and I have been friends for almost 6 years. He has been a very good friend and I thought that MAYBAE I might be "missing" an opportunity as a single gal. He after all has some fabulous qualities and isn't a freakishly ugly or anything...SO! I went to the wedding in Spokane, and was gone a total of one week. I left on Wednesday and returned to what I call "THE EVENT".

I flew from Spokane to Portland Or. I wanted to see my friend Jen and my Aunt H and her beautiful twin daughters. (I still can't beleive that they will be 17 on the 26th of this month! How time flies!!) So anyway, Tuesday night, I text JT that I will be getting up early to catch the flight home and then "it" starts. 215am I get a text message "I love you so much"..."I am so in love with you" NEXT message 230am.." I know that you know this, I can't wait to tell you to your face!" NEXT Text 315am "Don't be made at me...but I have totally F**ked up"...Then the alarm on my phone when off (which was the only reason I left it on!) at 415am to get ready to go to the airport and fly home. So, I am waiting for my name to be called for the last seat on the plane, and JT calls. I told him that I will have my sister pick me up at the airport and I will call him right back. (when they call your name to get on the flight, you do not dilly dally around) I tried to call him back before take off and I just got voicemail, soI left him a VM about the pick up arrangments.

SO what happened between the time I told him that my sister will get me and the plane landing in PHX? JT shows up at my sisters house, no vehicle. He first wants the keys to MY car (my sister has my spare set to all my stuff...Just in case I need her) Then when she can't find them, he VOLUNTEERS to drive my sisters car to come get me. WTF?!?!?!? Well, HE HAD to be the one to pick me up and so my sister allowed him to get me as she had just put the girls down for a morning nap. Made sence right? Well the rest of the day he barely talked to me and when I asked about his truck, he said that the neighbors had his truck towed and he would have to get it from the impound lot. I said, "why did the neighbors tow your truck?" He said, well, I parked in their spot. Since he had gone out the night before and he was drinking, seemed to be beleivable and all....

So the rest of the day he sat on my sofa, not talking. This is ridiculous. I just spent a week away and he would rather watch TV than talk to me about my trip??? Unbeleivable. Get a hammer!!! Well, I finally said, "what are your planstoday? I am simply exhausted, and since I have to work tonight, I need to get a nap in." I took him home and he didn't call me for the rest of the day. I called him the next morning to see about getting him to his truck. He didn't call back untill 430pm. That is when he told me "I have something serious to tell you"..OK. He said, "Well, I lied to you.(UMMMM WHAT ABOUT????) I really got another ticket for sleeping DRUNK in my truck and they impounded my truck for the min 30 days, and gave me a DUI."
~Gulp~
SO now I am PISSED as just a week an and a half ago I found him trashed behind the wheel SLEEPING and demanded his keys. I was furious w/ him and told him that he is no closer to solving his drunken binge drinking than before his FIRST DUI 4 months ago! *steam off head*

I said, "why on earth did you feel you couldn't tell me the truth? I mean I am not your judge and jury?!? I am disappointed that you obviously didn't learn anything from the last time this happened to you. Thank you for telling me, I do appreciate it. He then said, "well the guilt was killing me". [[' GOOD.]]] He said, He just didn't want me finding out from someone else. (HMMMMPPPFFFTTTTT)


So last night I invited him over, made dinner and said, " we need to talk". He said well I half expected this and I am releived that you are bringing it up".

~excuse me? You are such a pussy that I HAVE TO BE The one to break up????~

I then said, I have been thinking that we make better friends and that this whole dating is feeling "forced" He agreed. I want you to understand that you are not a "knight and shinning armor, that can just write checks to make my problems go away." I call you to vent, about my life gone amuck, not for you to "fix all my problems". He agreed that he "Likes" to fix problems. I told him that he can't fix some things...no matter how much money you have. "SEE" I said, You want to fix all my financial problems so that I will like you and want to be with you. At least that is how I am felling about the money that you "loaned" me. I had to pay it back, so that I didn't feel like some kind of kept woman...I feel like I was using you. He said he wouldn't have offerd if he couldn't do it and he looked as an investment in my business. (Yeah my personal love life business) He meant my glow business.
*silence*

I further told him that I value our friendship and hope that we can be friends. (yes I gave him the "F" word speach! I am such an ass. )

Well fellow bloggers, I am single AGAIN and feeling like I did the best thing for us all...I just don't know WHY I feel like such an azz.....What do you all think?